| Sep. 23rd, 2005 @ 03:35 am another sleepless night |
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Current Mood:  contemplative
Well it seems that my brain is either creating new tendrils or there is something about to happen I need to be awake for. Who fuckin' knows.
I have been thinking about the possibilities surrounding the occupation that Piff thinks I would be good at. If you do not know what it is then do not ask. I find it exciting and quite a bit overwhelming. The work we did the other night seemed to help her somewhat. What if I am only good at ding it with her? I would like to know more about it. Perhaps I will get a chance to talk to Jade this weekend. It seems odd that I find hesitation in this. I find it one of the largest goals in my life to help to heal people. I know that true healing comes from inside; I just feel that I could be good catalyst to this process. I want to do this work, but how do I go about it? hmm....?!?!?!
I want to re-rock my ceiling. I want to either refurbish or replace my windows. I want to get doors for the closet and bathroom. I fell as though it always the professionals that never keep up with their specialties in their personal life. Mechanics drive shitty cars, carpenters live in shanties, plumbers always have running toilets: why?
I need to set a list of goals for the present and future(any recommendations are welcomed). Possible goals:
EMT training, for me and my family, friends, and those friends I have not yet met
massage school, same as the above but primarily Piff, my fiance and Melody, my "girlfriend"(platonic sort) learn to weld
get the goddamned car going, and keep it going, and going, and going...
buy a chunk of land for my compound, then start a commune or cult, whatever seems better at the time
teach people happiness. make them understand it is not important what you do not have but one can find happiness with just what you do have(and a running Ghia)
write a book(long stretch for me) I write like shit and get really frustrated when the words come out wrong. Do not forget I know a lot little about a lot, but not enough, perhaps, for a book.
do something so good that people do not necessarily remember me, but the act, rather,I want it to be a catalyst for change that creates better understanding amongst these people, universally
stop smoking(yes, I wrote the fucking phrase down. I will dismember anyone whom throws this in my face! :^)>>> )
Well I think that if I set too many more goals I might just never get them done. The listing here is not in any sort of order. I will have to think on them awhile. I do need to stop thinking about them at some time and act. I should set acting as a goal as well.
I heard that there was a earthquake in LA yesterday. As upset I am to hear it, I am not surprised. As I have tod a couple of people already, I hate making predictions, but I predict a major quake in the next six months. I hope I am wrong.
Wow, i have the alarm set to go off two hours from now. Looks like I will not be getting much, if any, sleep tonight. I need to get to a doctor that will prescribe a sleep pill that actually works for me. I need a new script for Allegra as well. Maybe I can get him/her to throw in one for Zanax as a bonus. If nobody knows it, I think that chemistry is a beautiful thing, especially in little brown cylindrical plastic translucent containers. Well not "especially", but enough to really like them. I reserve the term "especially" for those pharmaceuticals that never see such containers.
Question: What is the most important virtue to have?(truth, loyalty, kindness, etc.)
Trivia: Where is most of the worlds Helium(chemical symbol He, atomic number 2)gotten from?
Fact: Sept. 8, 1900 Galveston, Tex.: an estimated 6,000–8,000 died in hurricane and tidal surge. The “Galveston Hurricane” is considered the deadliest in U.S. history. It was a category 4.
Comment: Let us hope it does happen like that again.
I am going to go now. I hope I have not bored you to death. Take care of yourselves, I hope to see you all soon.
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